Tigress has Decided
7.3.13
24.2.13
White Wings...
( Nov 09 )
White Wings...
"
Keep Bleaching!.. Just Keep Bleaching! "
White Wings...
Having had a close brush with death twice
in the past two years,
i decided that the best and most
worthwhile achievement in my life
from now on would be to Think, Speak
and Act like a White Angel
under All circumstances.
Easy decision yet hard to implement
such ideal in its core
in that it is Not what i Actually
succeed Saying or Doing
on the Surface but how i Truly Think
or Feel inside
in those Depths of Self that only I
know well enough.
Finding i had failed several times in
my initial efforts
people do not make it that easy
after all,
i managed to summon the
determination for a New start.
A few days later while i was walking
along the beach
i heard a Voice inside my head
from the Part of Self that had been Called
to Oversee the Implementation of
this ambitious decision
saying:
"How Can i Possibly be a White Angel
when i know very well that i am a
rather Dark one..."
I remained thoughtful for a few
seconds not knowing
how to address this honest and
confronting question
when suddenly the answer surfaced
from the depths:
20.2.13
* The Night is Ending...
( Feb 13)
The Night is Ending...
Although it reflects a true and deep wish to finish with this Life
The Night is Ending...
This is what was produced
at 4.45 am yesterday morning
while still asleep in a
dream...
It appears i was Blogging a
message to the Universe
because it was there ready
pouring out of my brain
before i could even open my
eyes and collect my thoughts
while sleepily and
frantically fumbling in the dark
to locate the book and
pencil in my iPad pouch beside my bed...
Although it reflects a true and deep wish to finish with this Life
i do not feel as desperate as
that all the time.
I believe what influenced this
entry practically created
during my sleep, is an additionally
inflicted deep, dull,
heavy pain throughout day and night
due to nursing a broken rib for the fourth time
making moving and breathing
more difficult and laborious
than already and adding to the intensity of
constant
chronic pain in so many ailing areas.
Today i feel better ...
perhaps some release of endorphins
is soothing the trauma.
18.2.13
* THE ONLY UNIVERSE
The Only Universe
Photo Irina Alimova
This statement leaves a lot
open to interpretation
depending on the mind frame
of the individual
so i will expand and
clarify here the intended meaning:
I am Naturally part of the
Universe
even if an Insignificant
one.
I participate in it my own
little way
whether elected or consequential
The World events and the Cosmic
events
affect me in indirect often
imperceptible ways
Coming to my Own personal
Universe
the way i live and on what
and how
i choose to concentrate on
a daily basis
has an immediate and far
more significant impact
than whatever is happening
in my surrounding world.
If i choose to concentrate
in the Past
and wallow and ferment in resentments
this impacts on my feelings
Now
and the way i express and
my Life in general
from day to day.
If i choose to immerse myself
into Poetry
Painting or Literature,
this is what colours
my mind and emotions and
the way i express
and my Life in general from
day to day
If i choose to concentrate
on spirituality
and the Consciousness or
Love of the Universe
that’s how i build a world
of comfort and security
Real or Imaginary and this
is affects my thoughts
and feelings and my Life in
general from day to day
If i choose to take Cosmic
Scale Science trips
about how the universe
originated, is expanding
or operating, this also can
affect my thoughts
and feelings and my Life in
general from day to day
None of these ways Real elected
interests
or Plain Attempts of Escaping
a Painful Past or Present
or Approaching Inevitable Future,
can help alter things,
until faced and dealt with consciously
but the choices i make affect my thoughts and feelings
and have an Impact in my Day
to Day Life
in a More Real and Direct
way than the World events
or the Cosmic Scale ones...
So, My Body, the Quality of
my Thoughts and Feelings
are the Only Universe that
matters
and is directly relevant to
me and my everyday Life
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15.2.13
Tigress Eyes
( Nov 11 )
Tigress Eyes
Tigress Eyes
Her Eyes are not looking at the dark
Her eyes are looking Inside
In the depths of the dark
Inside the Heart - Inside the Mind
Inside the Complexities of the World
Her Fierceness is to Herself...
Protector and Cultivator
of the Right, the Noble and Pure
Defender of the Weak and the
Vulnerable
Her Eyes are not looking at the dark
They are looking Inside
In the Heart of the Dark
Where the Brilliance of the Light
resides
Her Fierceness is for Herself
Her Fierceness is her Strength
Compassion is her Trade
Intolerance her Blade
Her Eyes Reflecting her Fire
Her Eyes Reflecting Desire
Her Eyes Reflecting her Soul
Darkness enveloping Light
Light consuming Darkness
In an Endless Inseparable Dance
Her Eyes - Her Fire
Eternal Desire
Her Universe...
Inseparable Dance
of Darkness and Light.
In the middle of the Ocean
(
Feb 13 )
In the middle of the Ocean
In the middle of an endless Ocean
In the middle of the Ocean
In the middle of an endless Ocean
No islands, no boats...
Nothing passes by any more
Bobbing up and down endlessly
with the perpetual movement of the
waves
fighting to keep afloat
Nowhere to hold on to
No place to navigate to
Just bobbing up and down
In the middle of an endless Ocean
Following the perpetual movement of
the waves
One day ... Only the waves will
remain
and the faint memory of a tormented
soul...
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11.2.13
Games of Deception
(
Feb 13 )
Games of Deception
Games of Deception
A Truth i can take in its Full Force and Nakedness
and Deal with in Time
But if there is something that makes
me furious
is Deception of any kind
especially under false pretence of
sparing my feelings.
Shouldn't I be the judge of what i can
take or not?
My Feelings are My Responsibility
I am an Adult not a vulnerable
little child
I Need No one’s Pity
No one should pre-empt and decide
for me
I find the Excuse cheap and
cowardice
as much as the Deception itself...
How often this game is played with
one another
quite falsely and unnecessarily
when the Truth can allow both
parties involved
to Know Honestly and with Dignity
Exactly Where they Stand ...
Exactly Where they Stand ...
