* Her Shadow In The Sun *

                                             (Jan 10)

                        * Her Shadow In The Sun *

                 

      It was a few years before She passed away.

      I was visiting overseas and stayed at her place.

     She gave me her Bedroom and her Bed for my privacy and comfort.
     She slept in the lounge room settee throughout my stay.

      It was early Summer. 

      The Sun was just rising with a piercing brilliance in the horizon.
      Its light, braking through the semi sheer curtain waving silently
      in the gentle morning breeze, woke me up.

      I looked at the clock on the bedside table

      surrounded by our family photos.
      It was too early to get up, so i remained resting quietly for a while.

      There was a slight movement on the veranda outside the bedroom.

      When i looked up i saw her Shadow on the waving curtain.
      She was watering her lusciously green plants.

      My first impulse was to get up and go and say good morning

      and give her a huge hug but for some strange reason

      something made me hold back and stay and watch her quietly.

      Between the Sun and Her Shadow,

      cast by the Sun on the Curtain 

      was My Mother.

       In her Shadow she resembled very much my grandmother
       and in that Shadow she was now Both.

       In her Shadow i saw Her in a way i had never seen her before...

       And Never before had i known so Consciously
       How Painfully Much i Loved her

           

         And Now, how Painfully Much i Miss her...

                           


                                         (  5 Jan 04 )

                     "The World is now without Sonia..."

                      

                                   John Sonar