(February 13)
My Life’s Dancing Devils
...
During the past Three years
of enduring serious illness taking me away steadily
of enduring serious illness taking me away steadily
i have often come to Believe
that i am Alive ... in
Hell!
Surrounded by many
different tormenting Devils
on a continual roster
taking turns torturing me
and when one stops another
one starts
frequently working in
pairs
so all 'changes over' overlap with no break
often suffering
three of them at once
and impossible to fight as they
keep moving
and altering rules and types
of torture ...
I am Enduring patiently all
day long
with minimal sounds
betraying any pain.
No need my entire body is a mirror
and an
eloquent picture of it all
Does anything go away when
i close my eyes?
No!...
Every pain, every
discomfort, every injury
penetrates potently through
sleep...
the body constantly aware
of its suffering
often my woeful moaning
waking me up several times
during the night.
I do all i Know to heal
this body as best i Can
while endeavouring to
Transmute and Transcend
its physical tormenting and
challenging reality
through my mind and turning
every experience
into creativity, helping to
see it all from an above
remote, detached level of
mind
as well as focus on
more interesting uplifting issues...This has proved helpful, comforting and therapeutic
but there are moments i wonder
had there been a choice of a peaceful, natural
"Delete" key, which of the two options
would i have chosen as my preferred one ...
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